Not all those who wander are lost..

20170829_165646I just flopped onto the couch for the first time in at least a week. We’ve been pretty busy lately. All this running around is good because it keeps my mind occupied. And that is something I desperately need most of the time. The busier I am, the less my mind is able to wander.

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A wandering mind can be a dangerous thing. At least I know it certainly can be for me. That’s when I stumble across my craziest ideas. Zip lining over Niagara Falls? Sure, why not! All because of my bored, wandering brain..
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Sometimes, like right now, I just can’t stop my mind from wandering.. It’s on a runaway train to wherever the hell it wants to go. First stop: Adoption Station.
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I know this sounds strange, but I try not to think about the adoption too much because if I do, it completely takes over everything. I suppose I’m a little obsessive. I can’t focus on work, I can’t function at home. Once I get baby on the brain, I can’t turn it off.. And it doesn’t take long before the ‘worst case scenario’ pops into my head. What if the birth mother changes her mind?
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I am happy to say that I think we have a pretty good relationship with the birth mother. She’s an honest person who is upfront with us. I don’t think she has any intention of changing her mind.. but that’s still my biggest fear in life.
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Then my mind wanders to things like ‘what type of man will we raise?’ That’s a question every parent asks, right? Who are they going to be? Will he play football or be in the school play? Maybe he’ll do both! Will he go to college to become a doctor? Will he go into the military and serve our country? We’ll just have to wait and see..
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I never want to limit my children. Everything inside of me wants to give my son the best life possible. Mikel and I are constantly discussing if we’re doing everything we can RIGHT NOW to ensure a bright future for our family. From researching the best car seat to starting a college fund, we never stop.
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I guess that’s when a wandering mind comes in handy.. Every time I think we have all of our bases covered, I think of something new to prepare for. I can’t control much in the adoption process, but I can control how prepared I am for whatever curve balls life may toss our way.
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So for now, I stay busy. Working hard, saving every penny, and doing things to prepare for our little man to get here. Which means my mind has probably wandered enough for today.. Until next time friends.. ❤

2 thoughts on “Not all those who wander are lost..

  1. Oh Andie, I have tears of joy for you and Michael, I am goung to continue to pray for all in this situation, I love your story and I know how much you are going to love this child😆😆, this journal is amazing

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