This crazy thing happened today.. I felt the baby move! We stopped to see the birth mother this afternoon. She said he was wiggling all around, then she grabbed my hand and put it on her tummy. I managed to keep the tears from gushing while he kicked my hand. What a crazy, surreal feeling.
We talked about sports and our own athletic abilities (or lack there of).. My answer was “Anything he wants to play!” but it definitely got me thinking about things. I say I am in love with him already. And I absolutely am. My whole world revolves around this baby. But I don’t know who he is yet. I don’t know his personality. I don’t know is likes or dislikes. I can’t wait to see who he is. He could like hockey or tennis! He could be a musician or an actor. He could be a doctor or a mechanic.
The curiosity is getting the best of me as I dream about this little life. I haven’t been able to stop thinking about it for the last several hours. I only know 2 things for certain right now: He’s an active little wiggle worm and he is very very loved. The rest we’ll just have to wait and see.
Today might have been one of the coolest things I’ve ever experienced. His movement only lasted for a moment, but it was such a huge moment. Just like the first time I heard his heartbeat and saw his little face on the sonogram. This was the first time I really felt my son. We are so blessed to be able to experience all of this. So many adoptive parents miss these beautiful moments.
Adoption is by far the most difficult thing Mikel or I have ever experienced. The highs are wonderfully high and the lows are heartbreakingly low. All we can do is take everything day by day. And today was a great day.